: I saw maga
(Sam Kabo Ashwell) Tweeting about this, which brought it back to my attention, and persuaded Joe to buy it for me. I can see there's going to be a learning curve. I figured out how to fire on the enemy and haven't died yet (I'm sure that will change soon, I only played about an hour and I'm blundering around terribly) but Sam had to tell me how to dock. :p
Impressions so far: the setting is familiar; I am hopelessly behind at Fallen London because the candle system doesn't agree with me (I am bad at checking back when my actions are refreshed, and forget to play the game, and this just compounds) so having a game on Steam where I can load it up and play as long as I want is congenial. It's very pretty in an atmospheric way, and the music as well. I don't yet know how big the game is, but I'm enjoying the fragments of writing that I've seen--all very Neathy--and am expecting to die a lot. There's a sort of roguelike mode and there's an easier mode, but once you go to the easier mode you can't switch back.
There are quite a lot of modes of address available for all your character's self-representation needs, from Sir or Madam to Citizen to Lady or Captain, etc. And the silhouette portraits, including an amusing one that is either wearing a tentacle hat or has tentacles coming out from the hat, it's (probably deliberately) ambiguous.
I have decided that my character is Kujen (because I expect him to die and come back a lot, haha) and this will give me an excuse to be evil. I thought of playing Jedao but [redacted because spoilers].
By the way, here are maga
's first impressions
(earlier version) at his blog.
- recent viewingGuardians of the Galaxy
, which made great family evening viewing. (I'm okay with the lizard hearing some swear words. I, uh, swear a lot. She hears worse from me
than anything in that movie. I basically handed her a book on the history of profanities and slang in American English, which she read and found interesting, explained that she was not to use such language at school or I would come down on her like a ton of bricks because Not Appropriate in That Context, and we'll see how it goes.)
Anyway, verdict is that it's a very fun movie. I liked it a lot: it's terrible science fiction, but excellent adventure/comedy. I have no familiarity with the comicverse (?) so I had to watch it as a stand-alone movie. Mainly there was enough context to follow the basic plot, but a bunch of things kept being mentioned and the world felt very shallow because it wasn't explained very much except as archetypes and snarky dialogue. ( is it even possible to spoil anyone else about this? )
Short version: yay! I'm hoping also to get my sister to show The Winter Soldier
, but we didn't think it'd be something the lizard would be very interested in so we went with this one instead.
One of the things I like about Mills College Children's School: today was the school's annual "community celebration," in which the kids perform a song, the Parent-Family Association makes a little presentation, and then we all eat potluck-style. And, of course, the head of school gets up to make a little speech.
Today, Ms. Brown got up to make her speech and said (I paraphrase): "I thought a lot about what to say today because my heart is heavy since last night with things I won't talk about right now." No preamble. I kinda wanted to give her a hug, to be honest. I kind of wanted to give the whole school a hug. Which is kind of what a community celebration is, or can function as.
My heart is heavy since last night with things I don't want to talk about right now. And heavy with other things, too. I don't think I've made note of it here but Grandie passed over the weekend and we are in the midst of making arrangements to go back to Ohio for the funeral next month.
I lifted my heart by setting the table, by serving the food, by eating and enjoying it and the company of the people who brought it. In the bright California late-autumn sun.
Shred a head of cabbage. Put it in a bowl. Cover it with boiling water, let stand for 10 minutes, then drain. Wipe the bowl dry and return the cabbage.
Grate one fat carrot and one large apple. Add it to the bowl. Add salt and pepper and red wine vinegar and mix.
Cook about 4 pieces of bacon, chopped. When it's cooked, add it and any melted bacon fat to the vegetables. Mix it together and eat the heck out of it because it's fucking delicious.
I made this for the kids' "community celebration" at school today; it almost didn't make it that far.
I went to bed last night before the Ferguson lack of indictment was announced. But I can't say I was surprised. Disappointed, but not surprised. Between the decision to announce at night and the gathering of police, it was pretty obvious that they were not going to indict Darren Wilson, and that the local government was doing its best to make the situation as awful as possible (The Onion's pre-decision headline, "Heavy Police Presence In Ferguson To Ensure Residents Adequately Provoked
," was dead-on).
As Newsweek noted a few months ago
, prosecutor Robert P. McCulloch pretty much sides with the cops every time. And as just about everyone has noted, damned near any prosecutor can get a grand jury indictment. the famous quote by Sol Wachtler about prosecutors convincing grand juries to "indict a ham sandwich" being pretty accurate. Of course, as 538 notes
, cops are the exception. It's almost like they're a protected class, allowed to abuse the law with impunity. If you prefer more right-wing sources, here's Reason noting the same thing
. If you prefer less integrity-driven right-wing sources, National Review is all over things arguing that cops are the victims here. I won't link to their bile.
I'm disgusted and disappointed and horrified and angry. And (as Colleen Lindsay noted
), the very fact that those, and not fear, are my emotions is about as much of a sign of privilege as anything.
Doing a rare thing and disabling comments here; between work and other stuff, I don't have a lot of web time today, and frankly, there are plenty of places for folks to have a conversation if they want it. Take care of yourself.
I wrote this whole long post about what I am committing to doing, and saying, in my effort to not raise another Darren Wilson or George Zimmerman. About how I don't even know where to start with some of it, and, though it sounds obscene to say so when friends last night were having much harder and scarier conversations, still the thought of setting out to make changes to our lives seems scary and hard.
Then I saved it and did not post it. Instead, last night Mr. E and I talked about what we should do. I think maybe as non-Black people this is a good time for us to have awkward, difficult conversations about race in our own families rather than in social media.
No indictment in Ferguson. A speech from the prosecutor that was pretty plainly incitement to riot. A barely comprehensible statement from the president, who looked like he was in shock. Not shocked in the sense of surprise, but in shock in the medical sense: the thousand-yard stare, the bone-deep exhaustion of the body, the mind trying desperately to grapple with trauma.
Or maybe I'm projecting.
The thought of going to a protest is nearly enough to send me into a panic attack. I think I'm carrying a lot of fear around right now, somewhere very deep where I mostly don't see it until I contemplate anything that's even slightly scary and find myself overreacting by orders of magnitude.
(If you feel differently, here's a list of protest events
My biggest fear is that nothing will change. There will be no revolution, no sea change, no way to close or cross the chasms in American culture. We will just keep on like this, murders and protests and murders and protests, on forever.
I don't know how to deal with any of this. I've been listening to Brian Eno's remarkably soothing Kite Stories
on endless loop because I don't know what else to do for my brain. It kept me from completely flipping out tonight, so that's good.
Beyond figuring out what the hell self-care looks like right now, my plan is to love people who are hurting, to clear space for people who are angry, and to think about how to raise a kid who won't kill anyone else's kids. That seems like the very fucking least I can do.
Dear white friends: if you can, please put some money or time toward actively making any community or space safer for people of color, and for black people in particular. This is on us.
Dear non-white friends: if there's anything I can do to help or support you, please let me know.
As we walked from Harvard to Central Square around 10:30 tonight, derspatchel
and I heard rhythmic shouting from behind us. It sounded like a protest chant, but we couldn't make out the words. We were walking at roughly the same pace, but we stopped by the Harvard Book Store. As they drew closer, we heard: "No justice, no peace! No racist police! Mike's life matters! Black life matters!" And then we saw they were not the only group on the streets.
And that was how we knew the decision of the grand jury in Ferguson.
 Via rushthatspeaks
: Ferguson National Response Network
, coordinating protests nationwide (and a few internationally). Boston details here
Aww, goat. Baton Rouge Zoo.
Scarce today because errands and then migraine. :] I did, however, have poutine or some approximation thereof for the first time today, at Leroy's. It was delicious and I have skipped dinner on account of it. (I have added poutine to my list of foods that I only get to eat once a year.) Worth experiencing once, though. I think, however, that I like biscuits and gravy just that little bit more.
Does anyone having dating sim recs for Windows (7)? Are
there dating sims for Windows? I'm feeling like a change of pace and I've never played a dating sim so I'm curious. Or maybe iPad. Are there (good) dating sims for the iPad?
Alternately, if there's some other platform that is good for dating sims, what is it? I'm not averse to the thought of investing in a gaming system because God knows it'd get used.
(Nausea not due to poutine, but Excedrin side-effect--I trade pain relief for nausea. Fun times.)
1. I want particle physics knitwear
2. I do not want to see The Imitation Game
(2014) if these reviews
are accurate. Historical infidelities aside, it really isn't helping that my mental casting for Turing now is
Russell Tovey, so every time I see a picture of Cumberbatch, there's just an extra automatic nope
3. In 2012, I wanted to see more of Sheila Vand
. Apparently she is now starring in an Iranian vampire film
. So I'd watch that.
4. I don't think I am capable of re-reading David Eddings' Belgariad
(1982–1984) and Mallorean
(1987–1991), because everything I can remember about those books suggests that Eddings' guiding principle was worldbuilding through ethnic stereotypes, but I encountered them in late elementary/middle school and every now and then—as last night, when it suddenly crashed into my head how much
about the terrible worldbuilding I remember—I think about re-reading to see if the weirder parts hold up, before I think better of it. I have fond memories of Beldin and Vella. I should probably leave them that way.
5. Giulio Aristide Sartorio
. I'd never heard of him. That siren. That blog, by the way, is a timesink.
A curious side effect of seeing Theatre@First's devastatingly beautiful production of Euripides' The Trojan Women
with my mother on Friday night: I saw it with a grandmother. My niece was born eleven months ago. We were sitting at J.P. Licks afterward when my mother commented thoughtfully that she could not see herself handing over her grandchild to be killed, thrown down from the walls of her city, even if it was the end of the world and all her children were dead and there was nothing left: she would have held Charlotte tight to her breast and told her not to be afraid and leaped down from the walls herself. And I believed her.
I don't read any more - and don't write - and I don't even make poems, I haven't since all that nastiness in the Loos years ago. I have painted a little for the last two days, so that's something.
It's all part and parcel of being so exhausted and feeble all the time. But I don't really know myself.
I was reading http://pomes.dreamwidth.org/
today, and reached http://pomes.dreamwidth.org/46338.html
and realised I MISS it. I'm not sure how to restart though.
For the past month or two, I’ve felt like I’m struggling more than usual to keep up with everything. I’ve felt more stressed and frazzled, and I’m having a harder time making sure nothing slips through the cracks.
Then this weekend I stepped back and realized I’m currently juggling four different books in different stages of production. Rise of the Spider Goddess comes out in eight days, with Unbound being released a month later. I’m trying to finish up the first draft of Revisionary, and there’s more revision work I need to do on Secret Unnamed Project of DOOM.
Oh. Well, that would explain it, I suppose. It doesn’t make things any less of a struggle, but it’s helpful to realize there’s a legit reason for feeling frazzled, and it’s not all just in my head.
I’m thinking for 2015, I may need to step back and take a good look at my priorities and time management and such, because what’s worked in the past doesn’t seem to be working quite as well these days. I have some thoughts on that front, though I’m not ready to get into details publicly just yet. (I will note that million-dollar movie or book deals are always welcome, and would simplify certain things immensely. I’m sure they’d add complications of their own, but that’s a risk I’m willing to take.)
On the bright side, we did make time yesterday to get out and see Big Hero Six, which was a lot of fun. A few plot questions, but still fun.
Anyway, things should calm down a little bit over the next month or so. And in the meantime, I hope you’ll bear with me if I’m taking a bit more time than usual to respond to things.
Mirrored from Jim C. Hines.
For the crafters out there, the Deal of the Day is on a selection Singer Sewing Machines
at 68% off. I'm not going to pretend to be knowledgable enough to know how good these machines are.
In DVD/Blu Ray, aside from the awesome Star Trek: TNG
deal mentioned yesterday (and the deals on Fight Club
, X-Men: Days of Future Past, Mr Peabody and Sherman
, Guardians of the Galaxy
, and How to Train Your Dragon 2
are also active), there are also big weeklong deals on Murder, She Wrote: The Complete Series
($76.49/72% off on DVD), Homeland
($14.99-$22.99 per season depending on DVD/Blu-Ray and the season itself, but all 50-63% off), and Hell on Wheels
($12.99-$22.49, again depending on season and format).
The Man of Steel Collectible Figurine Limited Edition Gift Set with Blu-Ray/DVD/Ultraviolet
is $15 (67% off). It comes with a couple of awesome-looking figurines. It also, unfortunately, comes with the movie Man of Steel
Speaking of bad movies, Transformers: Age of Extinction
is $13 for the Blu-Ray/DVD/Digital edition. And Home Alone: The Complete Collection
is $8 (73% off).
For things I'm more likely to want to watch, Good Will Hunting
is $5 (67% off) on DVD. Season 3 of Person of Interest
on Blu-Ray is $14.99 (79% off). Band of Brothers
and The Pacific
on Blu-Ray are $22.99 (63% off and 71% off, respectively) each.
If you need a player, the LG Electronics BP340 Blu-Ray Disc Player with Internet Applications and Built-In Wi-Fi
is $49 (51% off, about $20 below other vendors after shipping).
In video games, the Skylanders Trap Team Starter Pack
is $39.99 (47% off, and about $15 under any other seller) for just about every platform.
And finally, in toys, LEGO Minecraft The Village
is $31.64 (10% off, but really a good $10 below what you'll find elsewhere online). A lot of the other LEGO Minecraft
toys are similarly discounted.
Was talking on Twitter about how unfortunate it is that retail therapy totally works
. :D: Only saving grace is that, at least for me, it's so much more helpful/satisfying if I'm filling a real need with whatever I'm buying than if I'm just impulse picking up some random crap.
For example, last week I bought a watch and a desperately needed new pair of work trousers. Behold, getting dressed in the morning is easier at least one day a week, and that is valuable
to me. And the watch: I know people say watches are obsolete
because now everyone has smart phones, and all I can say is, these must be people who don't walk around outside a lot or take public transportation. There are at least a couple of times almost every single day when I want to know what time it is and I really don't want to pull out my cell phone. Now I can!
In general, I am honestly a big fan of material things, as long as they are the right material things. Material things that are sort of what I want and sort of not just pile up in the house and make me miserable. Material things that are perfect give me a shot of genuine happiness every time I experience them or use them. Like:
- The gorgeous coat hooks on our stairs that Mr. E and I picked out together and he installed one day to surprise me and which mean that we have a completely convenient place to put jackets and hats as soon as we come in the house and which, incidentally, are great looking
- Chanel Cuir de Russie, which smells like old lady right when I put it on and within about 20 minutes has transformed into this rich, smooth, work-of-art leather aroma, so that for the rest of the day, no matter what kind of mess I look like, I smell like subtle, complex, recondite pleasures; and it makes my entire day better
- My purse, which took me forever to find the exact right one, and which is exactly big enough for my wallet, coin purse, sunglasses, phone, iPod, headphones, small pocketknife, tissues, hand sanitizer, pen, lipstick and enough room to pull one thing out without knocking everything else out, and not one bit bigger or heavier or more awkward
- Our drinking glasses, which are blue and have this smooth texture which is a small pleasure to touch every time I get a glass of water
- Dried persimmons, for obvious reasons!
What are your favorite material things?
So when I made my Amazon post this morning, of course I screwed up the HTML. But when I opened the entry to edit it, I couldn't find any problem, and spent nearly ten minutes trying to figure out what had happened.
It turns out that when you screw up HTML in an LJ entry by putting in double quotation marks (a not-uncommon mistake for me, which is why the first thing I do is a search for two quotes), and then go to the "edit" page, LJ will strip the second quote out, and thus you can just hit save after opening up the edit screen, and you'll be set.
Of course, since I didn't know that, I spent ages on that damned edit screen trying to fix a mistake that had been rectified.
Dreamwidth, incidentally, does not do the same thing.
The Deal of the Day is on assorted Logitech Products
, with various gaming mice, keyboards, cameras, and other items going for 50-55% off.
The other DotD is on the first four seasons of Downton Abbey
, which can be had for $36.99 on DVD and $39.99 on Blu-Ray (63-64% off). That's under $10 a season either way.
The Blu-Ray Tenth Anniversary edition of Fight Club
is $3.99 (84% off), while Se7en
on Blu-Ray is $6.99 (53% off)! Star Trek: TNG Season 1
is $19.99 (74% off) on Blu-Ray, while Season 2
is $31.99 (75% off).
2014 animated releases on sale include the Blu-Ray/DVD/Digital combo pack of Mr. Peabody and Sherman
for $13.99 (65% off and cheaper than the standard DVD version), the Blu-Ray/DVD/Digital combo pack of How to Train Your Dragon 2
for $17.99 (54% off), and pre-orders of an obscure art-house flick called Guardians of the Galaxy
in a 3D/Blu-Ray/Digital combo pack for $19.99 (50% off).
And in live-action, X-Men: Days of Future Past
is $14.99 (63% off) on Blu-Ray and $9.99 (67% off) on DVD.
And finally, in books (especially holiday gift-season books), Walter Isaacson's The Innovators
is $21 (40% off), while Randall Munroe's What If
is also 40% off, at $14.40.
Sometimes, I go back and look at earlier parts of my livejournal. It depends on mood, whether I go all the way back, or some midpoint. And sometimes it makes me sick to see the cycles, to read something and know that I was headed for another brick wall, another barren landscape of depression and self-hatred, and sometimes I see things that I said that meant something then and still mean something now.
said almost four years ago: "I can't have all the things I crave. I can't be calm for a little while, and I need to just inhabit this anxiety and ride it. I told X that I was afraid my own sanity was a tiger I was riding, and that I lived in fear of falling off. But maybe that's a flawed image, or maybe the tiger doesn't actually care for the taste of me. I can't find or force the connections I want. Old Ani albums, tea, a book about curtains. Maybe this time around, I'll pick up the trick of self-soothing. Or at least get a giant tattoo."
Also, I found this fascinating meme, and only a few of my answers have changed in three years.
If I were a month, I'd be October
If I were a day of the week, I'd be Tuesday
If I were a time of day, I'd be 6pm
If I were a planet, I'd be Pluto (new answer: Neptune)
If I were a animal, I'd be an koala bear (new answer: norwegian forest cat)
If I were a direction, I'd be northnortheast
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be an end table
If I were a liquid, I'd be ginger beer
If I were a gemstone, I'd be a garnet
If I were a tree, I'd be a conifer
If I were a tool, I'd be the wrong size hex key
If I were a flower, I'd be an iris
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be fog
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be a mandolin
If I were a color, I’d be dusty purple
If I were an emotion, I'd be smug with a tinge of regret
If I were a fruit, I'd be a fig
If I were a sound, I'd be a purr
If I were an element, I'd be earth
If I were an element, I'd be lead
If I were a car, I'd be electric
If I were a food, I'd be honey
If I were a place, I'd be a beach
If I were a material, I'd be widewaled corduroy
If I were a taste, I'd be bitter
If I were a scent, I'd be dusty books (new answer: hard to come up with. leaf mold or cookies baking or ToykoMilk's Eden)
Things that happen on Twitter:readandbreathe
: Idea of the day
: A Doctor Who/Proust mash-up.rosefox
: Remembrance of Timey-Wimey Past, or Was It Future, I Forgetronhogan
: I bit into a jelly baby and a flood of future memories overwhelmed my mind.readandbreathe
: "For a long time I used to go to bed early. I'd dream of a box that is bigger on the inside than it is on the outside."ronhogan
: OMG, that pretty much IS Amy Pond fic, right there.rosefox
: "We are all of us obliged, if we are to make reality endurable, to nurse a few... follies in ourselves." (unchanged)a9ri
: "the real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having a TARDIS"rosefox
: "Every person is destroyed when we cease to see him; after which his next appearance is a new creation, different from that which immediately preceded it." Also unchanged. Maybe Proust WAS a Time Lord.readandbreathe
: "altogether he looked... as though he were the lifeless and wire-pulled puppet of his own happiness." < Matt Smithrosefox
: (I am not a Matt Smith fan.)rosefox
: "Often she had seen [servants] born. That's the only way to get really good ones." Yep, Amy Pond fic all the way.rosefox
: This is making me want to read Proust, which I have never actually done. I'm just pulling quotes off Goodreads.readandbreathe
: Ooo, you must. I just started the fifth volume.rosefox
: Do let me know if it's better when read with the assumption that Proust was a Time Lord.
I should be more tired than I am. I should be less anxious than I am. I should be able to let go of more of my shoulds.
I had a good day. I helped build a fence, I played with doggies that were very happy to see me, I sat in a hot tub. I was in a fairly good mood, all things considered. Yesterday I met with my trainer at 7am. I had a swimming lesson on Monday. I went to class. I built a pillow fort with Abundance and made cookies for him. I read a whole book in two days. I went to the library. I made an ambitious thanksgiving menu, which I will now share with you.
caramelized onion gravy
goat cheese mashed potatoes
spiced whipped sweet potatoes with brown sugar
green beans of some sort
pumpkin parmesan biscuits
roasted brussels sprouts with pomegranate and hazelnuts
at least one kind of cranberry sauce (probably two)
chestnut and cider stuffing
apple crisp w/ ice cream
chocolate cheesecake pie
maybe one more dessert?
Earlier today, my mood went off the rails, and Light reminded me that setbacks don't mean I haven't been making progress or that all the progress I've been making has been undone. Sure, I didn't manage to make it a whole week without crying, but I did make six days, which is the longest I've gone in a while. So instead of the failure, I'm going to try to look at the success. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself.
Insect Uplift Race
Devolved Uplift Race
Uplift Code (good military draws plus the production-side draw from this plus opponents' bad luck, basically)
Reptilian Uplift Race
Uplift Mercenary Force
Galactic Bankers (might as well do something
with all that card draw during trade/consume)
New Galactic Order
I normally don't get as lucky as 82 points on most builds, let alone a military build. Not complaining!
(no Drop Ships this run, ha)( full screenshot of opponents' tableaux behind cut )
- thinking about:
1.11 "General Inspection." I don't think there's anything to say but HA HA HA HA HA
HA HA HA HA HA
HA HA HA HA HA
etc. The episode's ending was pitch-perfect. Well, okay, and ( spoiler )
And 1.12 "Army Men," which was hilarious on a stick, ( Read more... )
Really, the TV Tropes page for Enlisted
sums up why I love this show. Command sergeant major (Cody) is a disabled black man who is awesome! (He's actually my favorite character.) The three brothers, LOL. Sergeant Perez and her frozen oranges! And I love this exchange between Cody and hotshot Pete:
Cody: When you were in Afghanistan, what was most important? Was it the glory?
Pete: No, it was the people serving beside me. That was my priority.
Cody: You think that's changed, just because you're back here, instead of over there?
I'm so pleased to note that Enlisted
has a Yuletide fic in the archive. I hope it won't be the only one. I thought about requesting it, but ultimately I suspect that the people likely to be writing for Yuletide are not going to be hitting the weird military base nostalgia I associate with this show, and that's not something I want a Yuletide writer to stress about. (If you are my Yuletide writer, rest assured that I really, really
love every fandom I requested and am super-happy at the thought of reading fic for any/all of them.)Sword Art Online II
ep. 20 "Sleeping Knights." The short version is that while this appears to be an Asuna arc, and I'd been tentatively hopeful about that, an aspect of this episode makes me think they're going to completely
ruin it for me. ( spoilery explanation )
I must be some kind of masochist to still be watching this for Bad Anime Date Night, no matter how much I want Asuna to get a good story arc.
Anyone who's followed me over the last ten years knows I normally do a huge amount (possibly as much as a metric fuckton) of Amazon deal posts around this time of the year.
Alas, both work and life outside of work are incredibly busy this year (and a week of business travel didn't help), so finding time for the posts is going to be harder than before. I'll still be posting, but don't expect them every single day as before (although I'll certainly have a big on on Black Friday).
That said, Amazon's current Deal of the Day is How I Met Your Mother: The Complete Series
How I Met Your Mother: The Complete Series for $64.99 (64% off), about $7 a season (and you get the alternate and better ending). Note that while some reviews report issues with the packaging, there are more recent reviews suggesting that it's been fixed.
Also on DVD, The Three Stooges: The Ultimate Collection
is $29.99 (69% off).
And in video games, Adventure Time: Explore the Dungeon Because I DON'T KNOW! - Collector's Edition
for the 3DS is $8.08 (73% off), and comes with the nifty BMO Steel Book (and some other stuff).
For the board gamers, the updated release of Sherlock Holmes Consulting Detective
is $59.99 (over $40 off). Note that only 11 are left at that price.
And because no pre-Thanksgiving season would be complete without Amazon discounting slow cookers, the 5-Quart Hamilton Beach 33957 Programmable Stay or Go Slow Cooker
is $29.99 (40% off and about $8 below other deals), and the 6-Quart Hamilton Beach 33969A Set 'n Forget Programmable Slow Cooker
is $39.99 (20% off, but actually nearly $20 below other vendors).